And I don’t know
where I wanna go
I have no direction
But I’m still moving forward

And even though
I may know
I have no destination
I am still moving forward

It may be so
that I don’t know
though the past pulls me back
I’m still gonna grow

And I may fall
but I’ll crawl if I have to
And I want you to know
that I am

looking forward

And I know
there are a thousand thoughts
running through your soul
and you can’t read any of them.
Because it shows
when you talk to much
or not at all.

And you can say
that it doesn’t hurt
you can’t really feel it
you can’t even tell.
But I know
that it makes you feel so small
or not at all.

And you may tell me
that you’re alright
you sleep at night.
But I can see
that you dream of blood
or not at all.

I wish I wasn’t this way
so generous with myself
only too willing
to give myself away

I wish I was like you
I like the way you play it cool
how you’re detached and unaffected
untethered and aloof

I wish I could pretend
I didn’t crumble at the end
like the way you stay so strong
like it meant nothing all along
as if my heart isn’t breaking
like all this time, I was mistaken

When the time comes
to let go
you’ll know.

Sometimes the moment creeps up on you,
sometimes it’s been there all along.
Sometimes it builds for what seems like forever,
and sometimes the timing is just wrong.

No matter the climb,
the fall will hit hard.
And it will be unmistakable.

But sometimes it is easier to run with a broken body
than to get left behind
by someone you love.